My Judgments have cause me, my children, my friends and ‘foes’ to be of ‘lesser’ value than we all are. Why do I say my judgments? Because I had to admit, when I reached a certain point in my “spiritual growth”, (maturity), that I was responsible for my life, my thoughts, my words and my actions. I had the responsibility to raised children that would be responsible for themselves. Not just in a way of survival, i.e. things of the world, but things in their hearts, minds and souls. I did my best with what I was taught and understood, to show my own children about themselves, their God, their world.
When life doesn’t “turn out” the way we think it should, we start to be think about life and what it’s truly about. Life for me, as I was taught, and I am sure for many, was to do as I was told, take care of my own bed “because I made it” and raise my own family. It didn’t “turn out” the way others ‘thought’ it should, but it did turn out the way it was supposed to.
I came to an understanding that it was possible that I was not taught in the way that was right at all, but in a way that helped me to survive a world filled with hatred, bullying and greed. Now, of course, this was my judgment for the longest time because that is “how” I saw life. So life, for me, was to accept the way the world was and do the best I can to live in it.
What are judgments and why do we judge, and do we even understand what we are judging? Because that is what we were ‘taught’ to do. Being a Course in Miracles student/teacher, I’ve come to realize that I have very little control over what happens in my life, my children’s lives and the lives I see around me. It’s not easy to come to that realization because there are many in the world that teach you do have control. Each of us must decided for ourselves, what we will believe.
I don’t want to judge anything or anyone any longer because I see how doing that can only harm. If I am going to be who I claim to be as a Child of God, I have to put away all of my judgments, including the ones I place on myself. This is not an easy thing to do but it is very possible. For me, I’ve learned to just give everything over to my Higher Self, God, Love. The more I do this, the more I awaken to what I want to see in the world. And what I want to see is Love being shared.
There is a Lesson in the Course that says to offer kindness, gentleness and peace to my brother. This is what I have been learning to do these last 10 years, regardless of what they are offering me in ignorance. I’ve learned many lessons in life, so far. Learning how ignorant I was was probably the hardest I had to face.
When I gave up wanting to judge anyone or anything for being what I thought it was, I learned that I gave up my own ignorance. We are all ignorant until we are not. It has taken 10 years with the study of the Course in Miracles and before that, the study of the Bible, to realize how ignorance causes so many “seeming” problems in our lives and in the world. There are no problems only solutions when we ask to see the truth.
Forgiveness, for me, is letting go of anything I thought I did to cause you or myself harm in anyway. My judgments of myself or you harmed only myself. I let them go now. The words of the Course in Miracles is the book I choose, in my journey, to continue to help me to let go and let God. The words of Jesus in the Bible are interpreted in the Course that helps me to want to remember Love. Love Is All There Is…
Love, Peace, Joy, Hope, Happiness, Health, Abundance and Understanding is For Us All… Much Love and Many Continued Blessings I wish for Us All… <3 :)